Hey everyone,

I am really sorry that I cannot be with you and choose to walk down the path of death. I know that there are so many reasons for me to live on. However, I just cant find the strength to do so anymore. I am sorry for the tears that you have to shed for me because I am not worth them.

To addy, I am really really really sorry about how things turned out. Its just that I dont feel that I can help you with quitting smoking if you dont seem to help yourself, maybe you are, but I just dont feel it from you. Again and again you have disappointed me, again and again you have hurt me. But I still love you. This time, I guess its just the circumstances that resulted in this sad ending. Do you know how much it hurts to hear you suffering but I just cant seem to be of any help? Do you know that I have this feeling that I am just being taken for granted? You will never leave me until I do not want you anymore. I guess addy will be crying and hating me because I could have just told him I wanted a break up and that will make me free from being involved in his affairs. But you know that I cant break up with you, I cant leave you alone..because I love you so much. Your happiness is my happiness, your suffering is my suffering...Sorry for being so selfish in leaving you just like that, but I guess I am just not as strong as everyone thinks I am.

To my mum, sorry..Sorry for ending the life that you gave me. Sorry for wasting the time and energy that you placed into me, but I hoped that with the time I spent with you, those were happy ones. My only regret is that I cant earn lots of money to support you. I cant help you to break free from the clutches of my evil dad..Sorry that your girl was not the strong girl that you wished to bring up, because I cant stand this life anymore. Whats the point of life when all everyone does is look on the surface? I know addy may not look very impressive on the outside, but he has a good heart and he takes very good care of me. Maybe him smoking is a bad thing, but why cant you give him a chance? Is money that important? Maybe you dont have such a good relationship and refuse to believe in love anymore, but would it hurt to give your daughter a chance? I am already a grown up, cant you let me try? I know you dont want me to get hurt, but we all will get hurt in some point of time in life to grow up. Its the hurt and the overcoming of it that makes us grow. But I guess, this time, I am just sick and tired of being strong and so decide to run away from the hurt permanently.

To denise, thanks for everything you have done in my life. You are really a great friend. I know having me dead will mean you losing a precious friend but well we will all get over it and find someone else right? You will probably hate me for saying that, I know. But you see, I just dont have the strength to believe in anything or anyone, even god now. Why fight when you know you wont win? I tried, so many times, again and again. And now I am just scarred so deeply that death would be a kinder fate for me. And suicide will probably land me in hell so I guess I wont see you because to me, you should go into heaven for being such a great person in my life.

To darren and kenny, I know I know. You guys will probably be like murong why like that? You are so young and still have such a long way to go, why choose to die? Sorry that I cant help more in the growth of vox, sorry that I have to quit halfway just like that. There is no one to blame but myself for being so weak. And for that I dont deserve to have a name in vox, just next time try not to push things too much when its impossible to fulfill..And beware of the cricket people. And peiru too, I envy you and really looked up to you. I wanted to be a person like you, so confident, so cheerful, so strong. But I guess, I can no longer do that. And Andre who treated us like a loving uncle, thanks a lot. I learnt a lot in my time in vox and received a lot of warmth from you guys, but sorry that you now have one less manpower to cover events, and I guess a friend that really fight for what she believes in.

To the rest of my friends, really really sorry. Maybe my death may seem insignificant to some of you, but to those who relied on me, sorry for no longer being there for you. Peiyee sorry that you no longer have a person to talk to about sex and stuff..you are a nice and sweet girl who can go far as long as you try and make the effort to learn. Kexin, cool and sensible, I bet you never expect me to push things that far..haha killing myself is more of a peiyee thing than a murong thing huh? Sorry that I cant go through classes with you anymore. But well just take care of charlene, I know she is lonely and feels insecure in unfamiliar grounds of interactive media. Eugene, yes yes I know you tried getting me out of the emo stuff but well guess those quotes are not going into my brain. Take care of yourself and be less analytic and maybe you can get the girl you always wanted. To Lihe, guess in the end, I am the immature one. Hope you can get a better friend like me and also the guy that will suit you and love you for who you are. And being kiddish isnt going to work that well when you go out to work, so maybe you have to change your image a bit, but bleah who am I to even talk to you about image when I dont really care that much about mine.

And to all the idiots out there who screwed me, fuck you understand. Grow up and learn and stop thinking you guys are so smart but this coming out of my mouth isnt convincing being that I am stupid enough to kill myself..but still at least I finally get to say them in my last words..

I know with all the regrets, I doubt I can rest in peace, but I wish that everyone wont do something as stupid as I did and instead live without regrets and go to heaven unlike this idiot who wrote this, who will end up in hell.

And with that, I hope that everyone can move on with their lives and remember that there used to be a girl called murong who loved the world with all her heart but decided to die because of the betrayal by the world.