lately

Well..been kinda busy so there is a lack of time for me to update >.<

LOL?

Okay..yesterday I was kinda upset and feeling bad about myself...all the funny depression feeling as I realised that ppl are starting to care a lot of looks in JC..makes me wonder whether my ideology on heart more impt than looks is worth it or not...also there are some disputes among a few ppl that makes me feel uncomfortable. I hate those sort of weird tension feeling between ppl. So was in really a horrible mood when I went to slp..

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Then while I was sleeping, somehow there was a bright flash of light and I feel like I am not being me. Its like being controlled by smth and its really a creepy feeling with my hands and legs all tingy. I cant move either...Due to the ghost stories I heard lately, I guess I thought that I was being possessed (lol?). I was scared. However, I fought with that 'thing' (dun ask..I dont know) in my mind by thinking "I want to be myself..no matter what, I love myself and so go away!" Somehow...weirdly the force on me disappeared and all was well..the most scary part was that when I woke up to check the time, it was a few minutes past 12am.

Phew?

Well, I guess that there are many reasons for such things such as stress, yadayada...etc..etc. But, ghost or no ghost, imagination or not, I am glad for that to happen. Seriously, it got me out of the weird mood I was in and the lack of confidence in myself. To whatever thingy out there, I thank you from the bottom of my heart (sounds crappy). Thank you for making me realise that the most impt thing is the strength in your heart and the love for youself...=)